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Thursday, June 9, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Days 338 - 349: I'm In My Dream Life
Well, the goal I set for myself almost a year ago has been accomplished. I am in the entertainment industry as an Atlanta-based actress. I am a blogger/writer. I am self employed w/ a start up company. On Monday, I booked a web series and I am happy about that. I shot a film on Sunday and I am happy about that. I am working out the kinks with my writing and business as well. All, in all I met my goal. This is all I got, and although I am on a low level compensation wise, I go to sleep smiling at night.
When I think back to my journey, I got here by writing letters to God. I'd write out very clear requests about my goals, and step by step God has made my dreams happen, with my actions as well. My daily actions reflected my prayers.
So, I am at the end of the road with this goal! It did not take me a FULL 365 days like I thought. It has taken me 349 days. My next goal is to obtain a stable income with all 3 matters. I know I can do it. I will do this. My six month goal from today is to regain my regular salary while at my last job, plus 25k more. So thats on average $75k from acting, writing, and business. I will do it.
I received this book today called, " Creative Visualization" by Skakti Gawain, and its my goal to visualize myself to my highest level, while obtaining my highest dreams. 2011 has only just begun, yet I am so happy and proud of myself that I can cry!
Well, I am off to reading my book and working to obtain money from my talents. Life is so much better right this moment as compared to this time last year. I have less money, but I have more faith in God and myself. I finally did what I always knew I could do. I am excited to see what's in store for me.
Thank you God for trusting me with my dreams. Its only the beginning. I will never give up. I am just thankful you got me out of the bad cycle I was in. I will forever be grateful to your mercy God.
On to the next!
Ps, I'll write a bit on the 365th day, to give a FULL year update on my career and life and all. This will be awesome.
When I think back to my journey, I got here by writing letters to God. I'd write out very clear requests about my goals, and step by step God has made my dreams happen, with my actions as well. My daily actions reflected my prayers.
So, I am at the end of the road with this goal! It did not take me a FULL 365 days like I thought. It has taken me 349 days. My next goal is to obtain a stable income with all 3 matters. I know I can do it. I will do this. My six month goal from today is to regain my regular salary while at my last job, plus 25k more. So thats on average $75k from acting, writing, and business. I will do it.
I received this book today called, " Creative Visualization" by Skakti Gawain, and its my goal to visualize myself to my highest level, while obtaining my highest dreams. 2011 has only just begun, yet I am so happy and proud of myself that I can cry!
Well, I am off to reading my book and working to obtain money from my talents. Life is so much better right this moment as compared to this time last year. I have less money, but I have more faith in God and myself. I finally did what I always knew I could do. I am excited to see what's in store for me.
Thank you God for trusting me with my dreams. Its only the beginning. I will never give up. I am just thankful you got me out of the bad cycle I was in. I will forever be grateful to your mercy God.
On to the next!
Ps, I'll write a bit on the 365th day, to give a FULL year update on my career and life and all. This will be awesome.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Days 324-337: 23 Days and Counting!!!!
Okay, well I am in my dream officially on a small scale. I am in Atlanta, and I am acting, writing, and I have the plans for my small business. Now I need all to go on a higher scale. I need a break through and to be honest I am working hard each day to create a way.
I have 23 more days to get further into the industry and I am ready.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Days 316-323: A Different Conversation
My days have been good. I've experienced a lot of revelations and all over the past week and the one thing that I must do is change the career convo I have been having with my pals. I am not "making it", I have made it once, and I living a great life while I dig a further into my gifts. One of my pet peeves is with people calling me about "the struggle" or making it into our desired dreams. I am getting kind of irritated by the emails and calls. I hate even talking to ppl now about it. I just want to get to a level where people do not have to call me about making it because they know I have made it.
I know that may sound awful, but all it really means is that I am ready to change the conversations that I have been having with people. Just like with my weight loss. I had a dear friend that I used to always talk about weight loss. Well, I lost the weight, and now the friend and I talk about her weight problem. Well, now is the time to change the convo about my career problem. This time next year, God willing, I will not chat about making it, because I will have made it on my own terms.
I am so irritated by the convos that people have with me, and its nothing agiangst them, but I must remove myself from the group of people that are not allowing themselves to fully live in their dream list. I do not want to be in this group anymore. Just like I removed myself from the weight group.
I guess life is all about moving up. And transitioning.
I have a little over a month before I hit my deadline of being fully in the entertainment industry as a actress, writer, and etc. I will make my deadline. I mean I am already acting---and I am already acting. I am still going to push much more. But I have met my goals.
Oh I have a new site at mashadowell.com and I am excited
All in all ---life is good.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Days 308-315: All Is Well
I have been sick and yet working hard towards my goals. All is not well, but I am in my dream career, just in the very beginning of it. I am frustrated financially, and I want to go back to the sciences for money. Yet, each time I do that I get off track with my goals.
So right now, I am trying to work it out. My goal is to make money doing what I love only, even at first if that means working for free and working more than one job to support myself.
Its been 6 months in my career transition. God willing when I have marked a year---I will see lots of progress.
So right now, I am trying to work it out. My goal is to make money doing what I love only, even at first if that means working for free and working more than one job to support myself.
Its been 6 months in my career transition. God willing when I have marked a year---I will see lots of progress.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Days 286-307: 58 Days and Counting
Well, almost a whole month has passed and I did not post. Of course a lot has happened. For the most part, I have been awakened more. I realized that I have to take the responsibility for where I am in life, and guess what? When I started to monitor my conversations with people, my thoughts, my actions. I have been in a self-defeating mode for a while. Its odd, because I was not even aware of my habit. Until I silenced myself for a bit.
I started listening to the conversations that I would have with people. I begin looking how I treated myself. I begin to really look at where I spent my time, as compared to what I dreamed of. I started paying attention to my friends and what they approached me with---like the topics and all. My family too. I started to question my habits and I started measuring my actions against what I said I wanted out of life. I guess you can call it a end of the year self audit.
What I found really amazed me. I realized that the convos I was having with most my friends were not in alignment with my dreams. I was wasting time talking about trying and not doing. So I started to get to doing. When I started doing, I noticed that I did not really have that much in common with certain friends. Because I was doing. This goes for family too. I noticed that its so easy to have conversations about whats going wrong, and its oddly harder to speak openly about what's going right in our lives. I then noticed that if all my time is spent talking about whats wrong---I'm just going to get more of that. So this month---I've had to correct myself, and correct people so they will not add me to their life categories.
I've learned that its really easy to live out your dream if you never quit. I realized that you must self promote. I have learned that you must take yourself very seriously, because if at one time you were a lazy looser, and then you want to change. People will need to be introduced to the upgraded you.
So here I am. I have 58 days until my goal date for my career change of Feb 17th. So roughly almost 2 months. Well, let me tell you---I had no clue I was going to loose my job in July and then end up moving to Atlanta to officially start my professional acting career. I mean I technically started it in Durham, NC---however, I did have a job then and all. So now its like the real thing. Its amazing how things change when you make a decision. It has not been a smooth ride. But I'm riding this dream thing out. This time, I'm finally doing it.
I started listening to the conversations that I would have with people. I begin looking how I treated myself. I begin to really look at where I spent my time, as compared to what I dreamed of. I started paying attention to my friends and what they approached me with---like the topics and all. My family too. I started to question my habits and I started measuring my actions against what I said I wanted out of life. I guess you can call it a end of the year self audit.
What I found really amazed me. I realized that the convos I was having with most my friends were not in alignment with my dreams. I was wasting time talking about trying and not doing. So I started to get to doing. When I started doing, I noticed that I did not really have that much in common with certain friends. Because I was doing. This goes for family too. I noticed that its so easy to have conversations about whats going wrong, and its oddly harder to speak openly about what's going right in our lives. I then noticed that if all my time is spent talking about whats wrong---I'm just going to get more of that. So this month---I've had to correct myself, and correct people so they will not add me to their life categories.
I've learned that its really easy to live out your dream if you never quit. I realized that you must self promote. I have learned that you must take yourself very seriously, because if at one time you were a lazy looser, and then you want to change. People will need to be introduced to the upgraded you.
So here I am. I have 58 days until my goal date for my career change of Feb 17th. So roughly almost 2 months. Well, let me tell you---I had no clue I was going to loose my job in July and then end up moving to Atlanta to officially start my professional acting career. I mean I technically started it in Durham, NC---however, I did have a job then and all. So now its like the real thing. Its amazing how things change when you make a decision. It has not been a smooth ride. But I'm riding this dream thing out. This time, I'm finally doing it.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Day 285: Building Muscle
I'm building tough skin or muscle when it comes to my professional life. I've learned to love what I create no matter what people say. I've also learned that we all get used and that oddly, all things do work out in our favor. I've learned that you should never try to prove your dreams to anyone. You should know what you want, and if people ask you what you are doing you can show them. Physical evidence is always the best explanation. Because just like art, people will interpret what they want from what they see.
I type all of this today to say that I used to spend a lot of time explaining to people what I was doing. When really it only matters if I understand what I am doing. Because at the end of the day, I must live with my results good and bad. Its cool though to live with what you have created, instead of waiting for someone else's approval or dis approval. When it comes to making money from your art, that's an art too. People like what they like, and when it comes to commerce they may like what you don't even deem important.
I say all of this to say that I have built muscle in my 5 months from work in regard to my art. A muscle that I thought already existed, but it did not. Its not a shield, its more like a cold reality, its more like the strength of my legs to walk. I now have muscle to create and get to where I am going in real time, instead of only in my dreams.
I am happy.
I type all of this today to say that I used to spend a lot of time explaining to people what I was doing. When really it only matters if I understand what I am doing. Because at the end of the day, I must live with my results good and bad. Its cool though to live with what you have created, instead of waiting for someone else's approval or dis approval. When it comes to making money from your art, that's an art too. People like what they like, and when it comes to commerce they may like what you don't even deem important.
I say all of this to say that I have built muscle in my 5 months from work in regard to my art. A muscle that I thought already existed, but it did not. Its not a shield, its more like a cold reality, its more like the strength of my legs to walk. I now have muscle to create and get to where I am going in real time, instead of only in my dreams.
I am happy.
