I have no blog comments on here and I am so happy. I am so nervous in taking my dreams VERY serious for the first time. I cant even lie---I am not strong. If it were not for my God----I am not even sure I would have the bravado and esteem to REALLY dive into my dreams still at 32. I mean I am not addicted to age or anything but I have been going at my dreams for many years now...and what I have done is go hard and then fall back and ease up. Then go HARD again and ease back. It has been as if I am afraid of what success will mean.
I certainly dont get why its taken me so long to get to my first dream career destination---but I have a feeling its linked to not being steady with my career aim. I have allowed myself to get side tracked by bad lovers, temp career downgrades, family issues, money, etc. I am sorry but that cant hold me back any longer. Because in all honesty there will always be problems. I mean as I type right now I am in love with a man that is being a total jerk...BUT I have been a jerk to him as well. But the point I am trying to make is that even though its a total low point with this man. I have to keep on pressing with my dreams. I still want him and if the heavens co-sign on my desire...I will be matched with this Haitian hottie :) eccentric Haitian man...ten years older than me...man. BUT I like him a lot and it is what it is.
Off topic. The point is I may never speak to Mr. Brooklyn ever again. Besides I have some things going on myself. BUT I must carry on with my dreams...and do them every single DAY. EVERY SINGLE DAY.
Oh well...I am so glad I dont have anyone viewing this blog right now that I know of...GOOD. Because I am so at a point that I dont like what I see---but I must start somewhere and I have started NOW---
Consistently working towards my dream...
MDoWell
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