Day 278: I'm on a Rocket

I have to wash my face and get to work. Real hard work it is. I am a launch pad for blessings.

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Day 271: I am Happy

I decided to be happy about where I am at in life last night. I've been dreaming awesome dream, having awesome visions, and knowing that all things are working together. I pray I have a great day. I feel like I will. No fireworks, but peaceful and productive. I need some coffee :)

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Day 269-270: Reading

I am awfully tired. It's not working as in physical working, but mental working. I am reading Sidney Poitier's autobio, " The Measure of a Man". Its really good and its a acting lesson and life lesson in one. I am down in the pits about a lot today personally, but this to shall pass. As I learned in the islands last week...after every storm comes the sun and after the sun comes the storm. Its a fact in life. Oddly, I learned a great deal from the Caribbean. Now I am semi broke. Today just sucks for me and I went to church. I will tell you something while the preacher was preaching I wrote on a piece of paper, " I am becoming a Buddhist". I am not sure why I just shared that...

Anyways, here's what's going on with me right now--this moment:

1. Reading this book that is changing my life as an actor.
2. A Literary agent contacted me on Thursday to request two samples of a travel book that I am writing. I am nervous as hell in sending this off. I have it and I will do a once over today and just press send.
3. My blogs have gained a little traction for being in existence for a month. I just need to take a look at where I want t go with each of them. I look at my two blogs as my two 'twins". Oh, check them out at www.globalblackwomen.com and www.culturatist.com .
4. I have to submit 4 travel posts for www.Blackatlas.com --- I have a few trips I want to write about.
5. I am writing a piece for a UN entity to get published.

So I have a little traction going on with my acting and writing.

I will be in Atlanta for about 12 weeks to get involved with their acting scene. I need some experience, so a dear friend is allowing me to stay with them while I put some energy behind that.

Oh! I was contacted this week by an LA gig to submit my resume.

So, in my professional life right now---I have activity.

Its my deepest prayer that I can sale two books ( starting with the travel book and then the memoir), get my blogs together and get more involved online and all, and get to Atlanta and give acting my all.

I will be in Atlanta on Dec 1st. There for Dec-Mar and then back to LA for good ( or until I decide to live somewhere else, namely France or so).

So here I am.

I try to look at where I am at and the possibilities in reaching my goals from God's view. It gives me peace. Since his view is powerful and no one can top it. It gives me peace that in man made terms or views my dreams seem far fetched, but from God's view I'm just a pebble of a being, and what I want is so easy.

I rejoice for the blessings that are about to happen in my life. I feel them. I really feel their breath. If that even makes sense. I feel my blessings breathing on me. They need to just eat me. I'm theirs :)

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Day 268: Its Another Writing Day

I'm pretty busy today. I believe I have caught a trade wind or something, because I am floating well at a staedy pace. It has not been easy to get me at this place...but I am here today and I am blessed.

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Day 267: Writing Day

I'm writing all day today. Got money to make, and of course express myself. I can honestly say I don't understand artist that say they don't care about money. I do. Of course I'd act and write w/o getting paid, its just in me. yet, if I do that I'll have to make money some other type of way and that's so draining on the creative experience or mindset. So I'd rather make money off of my art and live.

To date I have made $225 from acting. It was from a local commercial, a play I starred in, and a film where I did some background work :) Small checks but I can say over the past years that was the best money I have ever earned. So now my quest is to earn money to live my dream lifestyle. I wish I could say I don't love beautiful and sometimes expensive items. I can not.

So now that I have lost my 9 to 5 ( less than six/seven figure job), I now need to pimp my art to get to that same place. Just keeping it honest. I am going to make this happen sooner than later, I have been deprived for 4 months ( since my job ended). I can't live like I have been living for too much longer.

I am at a point where even a Sugar Daddies money would not be enough :)

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Day 266: Writing Day

So much of what I do has to be on paper after its in my head. So today, I just need to get my 'paper' right. I need to have a eyebrow threader with me 24/7...while I am typing I just can't help but to know how thick my brows are. I tell you.

Anyways, I am assisting my father today and I am taking my laptop with me so I can get a lot done. So much to write. So much to do. I will have a blessed day and I look forward to learning a lot.

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Day 265: Do What I've Never Done Before

I like the fact that its 2010. For some reason I love numbers that end with 0's or 5's...when it comes to life and reflection. Like 20 and 25 are milestone ages and same with years...2010 and 2015. So last night I was like what can I do to get where I am going? I told myself---I'm not changing my Feb 17th deadline. So what do I do? I simply do what I have never done before. So I wrote down a list of everything that worked for me over the past 10 years at 22 and then a new list of what I did not do that I can try now. I was amazed at my new list. I was scared of my new list. Now I will prune that list and do what I have never done before. I am ready.

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Day 264: Damita - No Looking Back (US Version)

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Days 263-274: Going Upward

I just found a random old blog of mine here: http://mashawnda.wordpress.com/

I found this picture of me from LAST YEAR where I was fat as shit:

As compared to me right now: 

I am a new person and I never even noticed any change. I mean my body changed, my life has certainly improved and I never even took notice. You know why? Because it was a mental shift. That's all. A mental shift of what was possible. After I shifted my mind. my faith in God, my life, dreams...all other things shifted too. A guy made a comment to my old blog and that's how I re found it. I still don't have access to it...so if you want to see my life from Dec 2007 until right before I started this blog...check out the old blog. So I've been a official blogger for 3 years. I just kept starting and stopping. I had no purpose either. 

I can say...my life changed at 30 years old. 

So here I am with this blog. I created it after seeing Julia and Julie. I gave myself 365 days to get into the entertainment industry. I started this year on feb 17th 2010. My goal deadline is Feb 17th 2011. I have exactly.......

From and including: Monday, November 15, 2010
To and including: Thursday, February 17, 2011

It is 95 days from the start date to the end date, end date included

Or 3 months, 3 days including the end date

I'M GOING TO EFFING GET 

THIS GOAL DONE!!!!!

I have 95 days. 

I decided yesterday to move to Atlanta on my way back to LA to at least get into my goal. I am not on stable ground right now. I will land safely. I feel it. I can do this. God got me. 

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Day 262: A New Path

Well, the deadline for my goal which is to be into my 'dream' career by Feb 17th is fast approaching. I have 104 days. Its so close. So naturally I am sad a d bit fearful. YET, I am not stopping. I am not able to do so. I am already on the path to succeed. Well last night the craziest thing happened to me. I was down during the day, and then I just decided to go to sleep early---I was so tired. Then in a dream I was given a plan. Well, a method to get exactly to where I am supposed to go? 

The dream said go from blogger, self published author, commercially successful authors, then to actress, and screenwriter, and so forth. So, today, while I was doing work, I came across a video that pretty much showed me what I am supposed to do via http://aartilla.blogspot.com/

I will alter my game plan. I am glad I saw this you tube video. 

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Day 254-260: Its Nov 1st....My deadline is Feb 17th

I getting close to my goal date and I am still pushing. I have been focused. I am happy with my progress. 

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