Sunday, June 20, 2010

Days 125& 126: Steady Flow

This weekend I slept in and I worked. I was pretty productive and I wanted to just be lazy. But I must finish out the 2nd quarter of the year on a strong note. A very strong note. I feel rushed and uneasy. But I am thinking because I have just never worked very hard in my life for what I want. Typically, I wait to be told that I can do something that I want to do instead of studying what it is I want and then making a plan and just doing it.

Well I am doing that now and it’s no joke. Yet it’s my fire-like passion that keeps me awake when it gets gloomy in my life. Sometimes I wish I could put this fire of mine to a lower intensity level---but its just cant happen. I mean it will not rest. I mean it will rest yet innately I always know I should be doing something. I always have something to be doing. Always. I work hard and I play hard---but I am never bored. I may be unfocused. But never bored and without anything to do.

Well, I head to Miami this week for a film festival. I am taking a Spike Lee Filmmakers workshop, attending a CNN event with Soledad O’Brian and probably attend a few films. I doubt I will go to any parties at night or so. I am just not up for it. I want peace this week and some good conversation. Call me boring or whatever---I’m just not in the mood for a lot of chaos. I am in the mood for progress.

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